November 6, 2014
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I do wish I could think of something to cheer myself up.
Obviously the minor achievement of yesterday did not lift my spirits for long.
As I move about my house I simply have the constant reminders of how I'd just begun to make this place a home,
and how I must now leave again and start again. I just want a place to plant my feet and know that I can stay put.
That my efforts won't be wasted by constant uprooting... to know that as soon as a place starts to feel like home
I won't have to keep leaving and go somewhere else again. It's too late in life for all that. I do not have the
energy of youth anymore... or the health. It is depressing, and harder every day to push away that depressed feeling.
This is usually the happiest season of the year for me, and even that is depressing me now...
that I am not even able to enjoy this most enjoyable time of the year.
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I can't believe how long it takes me to get so little done any more ~ just the way it is, though ~ not gonna fight it ~
Yes, it took me 3 years to finally make this place start to look and feel like home... putting up the curtain
rods, hanging things on the walls... I've only just done these things in the last year... the first two were
spent settling into the area, getting everything unpacked, etc. .... so to think of moving just really
depresses me. It will take another 2 -3 years to make another place feel like home, and I could end up
having to move again and again and again every time I achieve it.... it just doesn't feel worth the effort...
it is just so discouraging.
Praying for some sunshine in your life, so You will be able to really enjoy the holidays. Remember the song
"This world is not my home, I'm just a-passin' through"?
I hope today is a better day for you.
You may have already said, but may I ask why it is that you have to move? and every couple years?
Hi Crystal,
Thanks for asking. When you live in these apartment complexes they keep raising the rent
and that's just the way it works out. They offer you a bargain to move in but then proceed
to keep upping the rents every year till you have no choice but to move. I'm on a fixed income.
I need to rent from someone who will fix my rent and leave it. That's what I'm trying to find,
and that's why I'm so discouraged.
We moved 7 times one year but we were 30 years younger and it was more of an adventure...I'd hate to have to move now. Have you considered public housing? I work for our local housing authority, the rents are income based and we have a very nice complex for the elderly and disabled ( HUD considers 55 to be elderly ) Good Luck to You...