Blue Monday

The weather is perfectly suited for how I have been feeling.
If it was bright and sunny out, I would be feeling very depressed for not getting out in it.

Beyond the veil

The thunder today is not normal... unnatural...
rather than the rolling sound of usual thunder,
this is a thunder of shaking... it has the sound as of rocks boulders being shaken...
a sound as of the heavens and the earth being shaken...
a thunder that continued for hours on end throughout the morning...
as of an ongoing battle.

We are having days and days of overcast... little rain... much lightning... intermittent bouts of thunder...
as of a raging battle, beyond the veil, in the heavens.

It is not normal... not natural...
It is different.

26 Whose voice then shook the earth: but now he hath promised, saying, Yet once more I shake not the earth only, but also heaven.

25 See that ye refuse not him that speaketh. For if they escaped not who refused him that spake on earth, much more shall not we escape, if we turn away from him that speaketh from heaven:

27 And this word, Yet once more, signifieth the removing of those things that are shaken, as of things that are made, that those things which cannot be shaken may remain.

'I shall not be moved'

psalm 16:8 I have set the Lord always before me: because he is at my right hand, I shall not be moved.
9 Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoiceth: my flesh also shall rest in hope.
7 I will bless the Lord, who hath given me counsel: my reins also instruct me in the night seasons.

58 Therefore, my beloved brethren, be ye stedfast, unmoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord... (1st letter of St.Paul to the Corinthians, chapter 15)

The day feels like those muggy end of summer days...
and the woods are teeming with life... all sorts of life... bird life
I've spotted a red headed woodpecker and can hear his soft knocking on wet wood,
and as best as I can tell, I've seen fly catchers, brown thrashers, and chickadees... I'm not a bird expert, but...
it is my own virtual rain forest... a bird watcher's paradise...
and all I could think was; "Oh my, I am going to miss this!"
I also realize, that I like high places... I like being up with the trees.

“It is the time to help make our homes holy places where the Spirit can dwell. It is the time to seek places where the Spirit can be present. Even in the use of technology, it is the time to ‘stand ye in holy places, and be not moved.’” (Sister Elaine S. Dalton: Young Women General President,
LDS.ORG)
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“The Lord invites us, ‘Draw near unto me and I will draw near unto you; seek me diligently and ye shall find me’
[Dotrine&Covenants of Mormon faith 88:63][from the Biblical scriptures, book of James (half-brother of Yshwe), chapter 4, verse 8].
As we do so, we will feel His Spirit in our lives, providing us the desire and the courage to stand strong and firm in righteousness—to ‘stand … in holy places, and be not moved’ [Doctrine&Covenants of Mormon faith 87:8].”

President Thomas S. Monson, “Stand in Holy Places,” Ensign, Nov. 2011, 86.

87:8 Wherefore, stand ye in holy places, and be not moved, until the day of the Lord come; for behold, it cometh quickly, saith the Lord. Amen. (LDS scripture)

I've just experienced the most amazing thing...

I went out to get my mail and the barn swallow babies are out playing... acting like children that have just discovered their wings and the joy of flying...
or maybe they have discovered unusual air currents that are fun to ride.. I don't know what.
They literally were flying circles around me as I stood in the middle of the parking lot... then they would swoop and dive.  It felt a bit like Snow White, but with birds on too much sugar or caffeine.  lol
I stood back on my sidewalk and just enjoyed watching them for awhile.

... like nothing I have ever experienced before.

a day without Frank, is like a day without the sun...

and that is today... both ways. 

and my sister just sent me this....

If a mother's tears could fix her children's lives, then my children's lives would be almost perfect. <3

I've never been very good at running
I've always let the pain stop me... when my lungs started to hurt, and my legs began to ache, and I got that pain that comes in the side...
but now I'm in this race of life
this race for God
and I can't let the pain, no matter how great... that pain that sometimes stops my breathing, the pain that makes my heart and every part of my body ache, the weariness of my limbs, this thorn that is in my side...
stop me from finishing the race.

I stress and strain over losing my home, and I sit here in my hour of prayer and I think of those images recently seen of Gaza and people whose homes have been reduced to rubble...
I look around at my home and imagine if a bomb were to drop at any moment and it would all be blown to bits... and I pray...
"Father forgive me for clinging to my possessions".

I don't think we mind when our steps are taking us forward each inch of the way...
but when the steps begin to go in a backward's direction...
it is hard to see, as your life shrinks, that this retreating in the world, may equally be advancing in God's kingdom.

'what must I do to enter the kingdom of God?
and Yshwe answered, Go and sell all that you possess... then come and follow Me.'